ABEWTIFULLIFE of ABEWTIFULMIND

Simple Things That Comes Our Way

abewtifulmind — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 21:30:43 +0000

I was really having a hard time thinking of whether to share or not with you about this blog entry. I know in the end (after reading this blog), you will say that what I have wrote and posted is a nonsense. Well, only one song made me come up with my final decision. This is a song from the artist Parokya ni Edgar. The song I am referring to is entitled “Tatlong Araw”. Below is the lyric of the song and below the lyric is a video from youtube in which the only important thing is to listen to the song (never mind the video).

Chorus:
Tatlong araw lang pala
Ako naging maligaya
Hindi ko man lang napuna
Tatlong araw ko’y tapos na

Araw ng kalokohan aking kinagalakan
Hindi ko man lang nalaman na ako’y masusugatan
Hindi ako makapaniwala at ako’y natulala
Lumulubog lumalala ngunit bat biglang nawala

(repeat chorus)

Tatlong araw naging masaya isang taong lumuluha
Bakit mo kya nagawa bakit ka hindi naawa
Ngunit kung mapagbibigyan ang patalim ay hahawakan
Kahit na magmukhang timang basta magkabalikan

(repeat chorus)

Chorus 2:
Tatlong araw lang pala ako naging maligaya
Bakit hindi ginawang lima tatlong araw ko’y tapos na

Coda:
Tatlong araw(5x)

(in case the video doesn’t show up. I have provided a link –> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xb4DvHS91jg)

Just read and listen to the lyrics of the song so that you will know the idea of what this song really implies.

Here’s the boring part.

I can really say to other people that I am a music-minded guy. I love to hear my favorite songs everyday. When I go “emotional”, I usually wanted to spend time just having sounds on my ears and not hearing the noise outside. I don’t know about you how you release your emotional stress but as for me, this is really helpful and I’ve been doing this for a long time.

Before I decided to file a resignation at Vanilla Networks, I have this plans to treat for myself. I’ve been working for how many years without a single penny save for myself. One of the things I planned is to buy myself an mp3 player that I could listen especially when I’ll be at the lowest point of my life. I have also told my close friends about these thougths and one of them told me to “set the plan aside” because there are still important things I need to do with the money I’ll be receiving soon in my new job that I’ll be working. On my thought, she was right. She was difinitely right. Why spend money with this one when there are still more important things to attend to. On the other hand, I can’t really help myself being excited that there will be great chances that I can somehow buy myself an mp3 player.

Well, the result? For sure, my friends suggestions were taken into considerations but my “want to buy it” prevailed. In fact, I can say that I deserved this thing that I bought. I know I can buy an mp3 player for less than 1,000 pesos but I chosed to buy an iPod Nano (3rd Generation). Well, it’s second hand but at least. I went to iStore and inquire their prices for this stuff and told me that it costs 7,000+ though Apple stopped it’s manufacturing on this iPod Nano version. “It’s worth it!”, I said to myself. Why? I bought this for just 4,500 pesos. Too excited that I even loaded the songs I like directly when I got home and caused my iPod Nano to hang-up. I didn’t know that I still need to install iTunes before connectimg it to my computer. Devastated I am but there’s nothing I could do but to wait until the battery will be drained out and charge it again.

Well, the connection of the song from Parokya ni Edgar is… everyday we are uncertain how many days or hours or minutes or seconds we still have to do the things we want. If we won’t work out on it, this may brought us into the brink of regretting those time that we have the chance to change those uncertain uncertainties. Good for me that before I realized I have done such wonderful things to myself. I bring my iPod everyday and hear the songs I like everyday. I bought this and not having any doubts or thinking about what might be more important things to do with the money I have spent for this iPod. This is much better than to come to a point where that money was gone and spent for useless things. Good for me that I have done that deed first before realizing it was a perfect decision. To your left is the image of my iPod I have right now.

This blog isn’t about boasting my iPod or about dragging you to believe me that I have made the right decision at that time. This is about how we should think about simple things and little things that come through our lives. Even how small or how less important it is. Others might just come our way and never realized it until now. This is not only about material things but this goes also to the people who we met or a small event that we have encountered or witnessed. Life is really full of uncertainties. Others may hold into prayers or destinies or whatever beliefs they have. There’s nothing wrong with it. It’s what they think it is the best way for their lives and they are happy with it. It’s not everyday that we come across a happy life. Tomorrow might be an end to your sanity. But at least, you have done things that made you smile yesterday. Grab every opportunity. Everything will just fall into pieces. We don’t have to worry.

Cheers!

Road to Perdition

abewtifulmind — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 15:59:13 +0000

I’ve seen this movie long time ago. I won’t talk to you about this movie today, you have to see it for yourself. If we have the same taste for movies, then you’ll agree to me that this movie isn’t boring. But if you think this blog is all about the movie then you’re wrong. Just read the next paragraph and maybe just give me the benefit of the doubt and read it all until the last word. Thank you in advance.
Last night, I had a great time with two great people. We were talking about life. About how we wanted everything to change in just a blink of an eye. As they were sharing their stories and as I promptly listened to them, I begin to realize how ordinary my life is. I used to think that I was the only one who is walking in this kind of uneasy road until that moment.

This is also another story I want to share. There was one time that my friend asked me, “What if he comes knocking to your door and ask for an apology?” There was a silence in my heart and I begin to think of how he managed to give a bruise and all those physical wounds to my mother. “Then he should ask his forgiveness to the ladies who owned my heart and life”, I quickly answered. At that time, I was referring to my mother and my two sisters.

Do you think I hate him so much for leaving us? Partly yes and partly no. wonder? Well, yes I hate him because he has turned our life this way and brought my mother and two sisters in vast pain that I don’t even know if the wounds would still be healed. And no, I don’t hate him because I became this kind of man.

Do you think I hate him so much for leaving us? Partly yes and partly no.

I haven’t seen my father played basketball when I was young but I can’t hardly find a reason why he’s being imported by other teams. ( I hope you get the point ). Like the father in the movie Road to Perdition, he’s letting his son get away from the hell he’s been living. And that is how I see my situation and by not hating him partly. I just want to hate him for creating scars in the life of my ladies and not hating him so much for what I became today. His life is in vast mess and gradually he left us completely. He maybe left a little question in me but totally thanked him.

I graduated in High School without even knowing what’s in store for me. He gave me the strength and surpass the cruelty of the world. He gave me the wisdom to understand the nature of this world. He gave me the maturity in the early of stage of my life. I was able to step in college without even spending a single centavo for my tuition fees. I was already contented with the money my mother gave me for the jeepney fare. I spend my college years as a working student in school in exchange for a free tuition. I get to know some friends and get to learn my skills which became my bread and butter. My course is way too far from the nature of what I am working now. I was able to understand how my life should be dealt.

And here I am now striving for the people I cared so much. Creating my life worth with the happiness I can give them. I can’t hate him so much for he’s giving me the real life we ought to live. The real pain we ought to feel. He gave me so much and let me learn the wisdom to understand life. He gave me so much that made me strong and overcome those fears. He choose his own path and I can’t blame him for it. We maybe suffered with the path he has chosen but we strongly stood up and strive hard. There are times I wonder on how he looks like and is he happy with his life now. Did he ever regret leaving us? Well, that’s one question that I think will never be answered. I am standing here now choosing the path different from him. I will be fair and honest with my family and never leave them. In any way, I owe them my real worth as a man.

Let me just end this blog by sharing to you the words of wisdom that once said by a stand up comedian on national television. And this will also be my message to my old man. “Kung nasaan ka man ngayon, D’YAN KA NALANG”

He’s not bringing us to the Road to Perdition. Thanks to him. Putang igit mo!

Maniac Little Ninja Turtle

abewtifulmind — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 22:30:57 +0000

Aym leyt por wurk, as yuswal! (I’m late for work, as usual!) Naa napud ko sa akong taras. Leyt (Late) napud og nagdali dali sa pagsakay. Pero tungod sa akong kaanad sa ka sige og late, duna nakoy pamaagi nga na divilop (develop). hehehehe. “Larga na ta”, ingon pa sa konduktor. Sa sulod sa akong huna-huna naka ingon ko. “Larga sa imong kunot”. Way pag duha duha nikapyot ko sa jip og tood nilarga na ang 21B nga elf nga jip. Dili nako malikayan nga samtang nagkapyot, nag obserbar pud ko sa mga pasahero sa sulod. Moa nana akong taras sa matag sakay nako og jip. Og dire nag sugod ang nindot nga storya.

Sa tumoy sa lubot sa jip, nakigtambayayong ko sa konduktor sa pagkupot og hugot ni-adtong tubo nga gahi para dili mahulog sa pagdagan og kusog. Hinay hinay og tagsa-tagsa dayon nako pag himantay sa mga tawo sa sulod. Dunay nangatulog, nagstorya, namantay og uban wala ra. Pero d dyud nako malikayan paghimantay sa usa ka taw nga susama ra unta nato pero duna lang dyuy gamay nga “abnormaliti” (abnormality) sa iyang tibook panagway. Usa sya gamay nga bao. Sa english pa “Small Turtle”. Kung akong tungtungon ang akong paghulagway niya, usa cya ka unano nga dunay borot sa likod kun ginatawag na buktot.

Swerte ko kay duna koy sheyds (shades) sa akong mga mata og duna koy pridam (freedom) sa paglaroy laroy ni aning akong kalimutaw. Wa kahibalo ang bao nga cya ang gi pyestahan ning akong way kurat nga paghimantay. Tinood! usa siya ka ninja! “WAAAATAAAAA!!!!” Puno ang sulod sa jeep og wa nay maskin hulmigas nga makalingkod sa kaho-ot. Maglisod ka og lihok bisan sa wala og sa to-o, mas hawan pa ang sulod sa lata sa sardinas. Di pana mao! si Master Ninja Turtle, adunay lalaki nga gisabak nga nagpangidaron og 7-10 anyos nga bata. Ang bata nga nitabon ni Master Ninja Turtle nga naglingkod sa iyang atubangan pareho pud niya galisod. Sosyal pud ni si Master kay mas nindot paman cya og silfon (cellphone) nako. Nokia ang brand og nipis kini nga mura kanipis sa Motorola L6. Sosyal gihapon iyang silfon (cellphone) kay ang kolor niini “fink”. Kolor pang babaye. Waw! Igat si Master. Kolor palang sa iyang silfon (cellphone) , makapakita naka og gamay nga tingsi sa imong dagway. Waw! sosyal dyud.. ang silfon (cellphone) sa bao de kamera pa. Bilib na dyud ko nimo bao! D pana mao! Pagpamatood nga usa siya ka Ninja! “WAAAATAAAAA!!!!” Gi abli ang camera og dayon targit ngadto sa likod sa iyang tapad og nanghina-ot nga makakit sa ubol-ubol sa likod sa babaye. WWWWAAAAAAWWWWWW! lupig pud ko dah. Mubo pa og kamot, mubo pa og hayt(height), galisod pa gyud… kab-ot ghapon! …. (tsk tsk tsk). Lisod da, dili ko makakalot sa akong buhok kay gakapyot ko. Dili lang kay maka usa ni niya gibuhat. Gikatulo pa sa hinampak. Kab-ota dyud pre.. sheyr (share) dayon ha. hahahahahha. Kita ang klibids (cleavage) pre? hahahaha.. Inday, e igwad pa gamay para makita ang iyang gipangita. Bulawan cguro na pre kay bisan galisod ka.. imo man gyud nang gikab-ot. Hinula^ lang kaha na dha. Ingna lang “ayaw og saba ni mama Inday ha”.

Na aghat lang ko sa pag sulat ni ini sa akong “online journal” KUNO! kay basin pa diay makahigmata ang mga tseksi nga chix nga maka basa niini. Kamo! kung ganahan mo ipakita na inyong itom nga kunot og kigol. Hala! cge pa. epaklaro ang cleavage sa imong lubot! Pilde lang ang masuko. Pero kung frawd (proud) mo ana inyong mga kunot og kigol. Hala! Larga. Ipaklaro pa haron magpiyesta ang mga lalaki nga higal. Mag apir pa! hahahaha. Basta pilde lang ghapon ang masuko. Wa man siguro’y mangli^li^ kung wa lang puy magpali^li^ diba? Magbantay gud permi para dili mawala ang respeto sa mga taw nato. Importante raba dyud ang respeto diba? mga bao!??!?? Di baya lalim ang bugal bugalan! Mas nindot man dyud nang mosunod ta sa uso para nindot ta tan-awn sa uban pero mag unsa man ang uso kung ang imong mga tinagu-an makita? piyestahan?

aw kamo gud.. nahan man kaha mo nga inig sulod sa lalaki sa CR. kamo ang iyang imahinasyon! wow…. The ninja in the making and the bold star in the limelight. WwWWAAAWWW nindot ni nga mobi (movie).

Sex and the City

abewtifulmind — Wed, 24 Sep 2008 05:13:20 +0000

It was a tiring Wednesday when I came home from work. I am actually working on a graveyard shift. Comes to work today and off on the next day. My girlfriend downloaded a movie entitled Sex and the City and I can’t help myself but watched the movie instead of sleeping and get ready for another day of work. Of course, I’ve heard about Sex and the City before. It was a TV Series where the main casts were girls – four girls to be exact. Well, watching the movie is a result out of curiosity.

As I was watching the movie, names came out from my mind. I can still remember clearly the day like it was yesterday that my ex-officemates are inviting and planning to see the movie in Ayala. I didn’t mind them because I’m not into watching this kind of movies especially that in my mind this movie is kinda like “only girls would appreciate this movie”. Ohhh.. the names? I almost forgot. The first name that came into my mind was SKY. Sky is actually gay (sorry if I sound absurd, I just don’t know what exact respectable term I should use). And oh, I consider him/her my ex-girlfriend because we used to go home together when we were of the same shift. Why sky? hmmmm… why did I made this question this tough? Well, sky is one of the girls in that movie, I would say he/she really would blend together with them. Sky knows the in’s and out’s of fashion. Please correct me if I’m wrong — She’s brand concious. Also, you can always hear her utter those words in english like it’s her first language knowned. Second name or names? Well, it’s Sai, Madel and Nadia. It’s actually Sai and Nadia who are partners in crime in terms of buying stuffs online. Madel also does but I think she prefers to do the crime alone. Heheehehe. (Please don’t mind me using such crap words). But Sai is the mastermind of everything. I always see her browsing pages on the internet where she can buy some stuffs online and calls for Nadia to take part of the situation she’s in. Sai wears designer clothes designed by her friends. Another name? Raymond. He’s the tech guy. He has the new gadgets in town. He knows some stuffs about some techonologies today. Another one? Well, Irene. When you view her pages on multiply. You can see pictures of her and her friends and you will say that she really loves to party…!!! Yeah!!!

Of course, I am not that idiot that I wouldn’t dare to analyze the movie and see what it is made of. I always look for the moral lesson. Cheesy isn’t it? Well, I think the movie makes sense and this movie changed my perspective about an all-girls-cast. hahahaha. Well, it isn’t the branded stuffs you wear and have that always matters. It’s in the end that always matters when you’ve got all your friends around and sharing those fucking moments like you have no more days to share with them. As for me, I kinda cherish those moments when Sky and I went home together and share those funny moments in a tricyle. Cherish Sai’s temper over me being “kulit” to her. Nadia’s smile and attentiveness when the topic comes to cute and handsome guys. Irene who I considered the “diet girl”. Raymund who’s a nice guy and with lots of admirers. hehehe. Well, in the end. It’s not about what happened to some happy and unhappy situations but it’s always about how you’ve gone through it and who stood on your side that manage to walk with you in despair, distress, tears, happiness and maturity of life. Cheers to you all guys!

Domain Name Down

abewtifulmind — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 03:50:31 +0000

September 11, 2008 was the exact date that my domain name (www.abewtifulmind.com) expired. Today is September 16, 2008 and I haven’t got the money yet to renew my domain. But at least, the plan is still there.

For the meantime, I’ll be using wordpress.com and will migrate this one when I’ve got my domain name already. I’ll get in touch soon. cheers!